The first video I uploaded was put up with an old friend in the summer of 2009. I was transitioning through the worst two years of my life into years that I hoped would be much better. That friend put it on her channel and before long it was stacking up views and comments. We both decided to create our own independent channels, but before long she deleted our video and most of her own, and logged off for good.
I stuck around on youtube, making occasional videos whenever an idea came to me. However it was all very secretive (none of my friends knew it was going on, nor did my parents) and soon I had stopped watching Amazing Phil, Danisnotonfire and livelavalive, deleted my videos, and logged off.
Thinking about it now, that was the worst thing I could have ever done.
Two years ago I created catsnapsfraps on youtube, and upon scrolling through music videos I came upon the British crew, zoella and Tanya to Joe and Alfie and then across seas to what was dailygrace, Ingrid, and the others. When I graduated high school, I made a plan to start making videos again, but time got ahead of me and I didn't end up following my plan. I started making videos again eventually, but my software is free and my camera is old. There is no hope for my channel to flourish anymore.
I remember very well when you couldn't just get paid for making videos like you can now, and had to be invited to be a partner, which was a massive deal! You got to be paid after lots of hard work and time. There weren't a lot of people on youtube back then so when you found enough subscribers to get to that point, there was envy. I wanted to be that person.
So, to my fourteen year old self, I'm sorry. I knew you wanted to make videos and have a following, in a sort. Your content was personal and funny, and it sucks that people aren't really interested anymore.
Regardless of what happens, I'm going to start this again for you. I will sit down every Monday afternoon and film a video, do some homework, and edit it. Maybe after enough videos and enough luck I can build up this dream of yours, and make it come true.
Sorry about the delay, Madi.
Thanks for reading, if you made it all the way through.
You can go subscribe to catsnapsfraps if you'd like: www.youtube.com/catsnapsfraps
Love, Madi xx.
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